Dear God,
I am so upset right now....i wanna understand why you made me have such a big heart and such a little brain...why did you keep me in love with someone who clearly didn't love me....i wanna understand the reasoning behind why you made us all like this...i loved with my whole heart body and soul and in return i got bad credit...four kids and a broken heart....not too mention huge trust issues...i just don't get why people who say they love a person can turnaround and be such a bastard....i did everything i could to make it work and in return i got nothing but heartache and bills....so i ask you God why do you let us love the way we do and for what to gain experience knowledge i mean what do you get from being so so hurt repeatedly i mean over and over again rejected like some germ in the human body....all i feel is hate and misunderstanding for what i had to go through i hear its suppose to make you stronger and yet i feel defeated...its suppose to make you wiser yet i feel like the dumbest p.o.s. on the planet.....i'm embarrassed and i'm heartbroken....i wish i had time to grieve but instead i just gotta wall up the broken pieces put on this mask of togetherness and walk out like nothing every happened....i mean after all its what i do best......until next time God
